Yes Im still alive and kicking.
.... unfortunately with this kind of thing - my Ana - it never goes away.
I can tell you I'm okay.
I can gain weight to make you shut up.
but I can't change how I feel.
I can't stop my emotions.
Ana isn't another person, Ana is me.
Some days Ana is quiet - some days Ana is loud.
In the end Ana is the one there judging me and calling me out
but only after I fuck up.
Its been 4 years since my last post.
In this time I tried starting over - new life - new house - new friends.
But what was the point.
Im back where I started.
Life's never easy, if it was we wouldn't need google.
We wouldn't need to complain or be self critical.
People wouldn't need to fix things.
I am 24 this year - and I have an eating disorder.
This won't ever change.
Lets see how long I'm here for this time.