Monday, August 10, 2009

Love vs. hate

Yesterday wasn't too bad. I had cottage cheese and lettuce.
but my uncle took me out for a blizzard. I was gonna throw it out but i had no chance i had to eat it... it was about 700 cals!! And it was a small!
So as soon as i was on my own i purged it... my first time purging in 2 weeks.
I was glad to get it out, but i was mad at my self for purging.
I told my self i had to stop because of my blood scare, i cant have mia back...
im sorry mia but my throat and stomach is already getting weak.
Hopefully it wont happen again, anytime soon.

So even tho i consumed im sure just over 800, i didn't put on any weight...
i seem to be losing about 1 pound a day!
Today im trying to raise it tho, eating less then 500 cals and burning over 500.
Hopefully that till work to get under 125 so i can work my way to the 110's!

Love you all...
stay strong with me...
Sandy <3

Thankyou! and yes it definitely is quite hard!
luckily i have my work, were i can say i ate their...
the best thing to do is be half honest with them and say I'm trying to eat healthy!
i did that and my mom is actually okay with me only having a salad for lunch :)
anyways thank you and u stay strong too
love ya's --Sandy <3

thankss. hmm thats quite interesting
i guess maybe i have an allergy to aspertame cuz i noticed the more i have it
the more i break out. You deffinatly have a point.

Stay stong love.
Sandyy <3

Friday, August 7, 2009


Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry
Plan today....
im burning as many calories as possible.... (DDR)
for lunch when i have to eat i will eat salad....
lettuce and cottage cheese... maybe an apple if mom starts watching.
for dinner ill have the same salad....
hopefully that can get me through without my grandmother questioning.
That is all i will eat today!

You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone

I don't know when but I know now

Together we'll make it through somehow

Together we'll make it through somehow

Courage - Superchick


Thursday, August 6, 2009

Not a broken promise

Yesterday I made a double promise, not to brake my promise of not binging at night.
Last night i kept that promise! I did not binge!
Yesterday I burned 850 calories, and only consumed 600.
I also worked for 3 hours, which burns about 100 calories an hour.
I was quite proud.

Just a shout out to anyone who reads my blog, thank you. i
Is really great to know that someone out there cares.
Comments and e-mail are defiantly welcome, as I read every single one.
Unfortunately I don't know how to reply to comments but i will reply to them through my blog if I can. For e-mails i will reply to every single one.

Reply to Twipz...
Yes, your absolutely right, and personally i think if your going to drink a diet soda u might as well drink a regular soda, because also diet sodas are jam packed with aspartame which is so bad for you, not only does it cause acne, but they use it to kill ants.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

True Tips and Tricks

I believe in every single one of these

*Drink water! This is the #1 rule for both ana and mia. It fills you up when you are hungry and makes purging easier.
The general rule is also that hot water fills you up more and ice cold water helps you to burn more calories since it lowers your body temperature so your body has to work harder to stay warm.

*Chew sugar free gum or mints constantly. I am never without one or the other in my mouth. The benefits are endless: it kills cravings, keeps your mouth full so you can't binge, burns calories by chewing, peppermint flavors suppress appetites, and prevents bad breath if you are in ketosis.

*Tea of Coffee are an Ana’s best friend. Drink with NO CREAM OR MILK and artificial sweetener ONLY. Tea is especially great because it comes in so many different flavors and is calorie free, as opposed to black coffee which has an albeit small amount. The caffeine is also great for raising metabolism.

*Cut food into tiny pieces. Put your fork down between bites. Chew everything a certain number of times. Eat in patterns.
Develop systems of eating. All of this helps to make food a mere object rather than the devil itself.

*Take a sip of water or other calorie-free liquid between each bite. You feel full much faster, partially because the body often mistakes thirst for hunger, so by drinking, one actually reduces the amount of food their body needs to eat.

*If you are really craving something specific and are on the verge of a binge, go into the kitchen, prepare it, and then eat it-but do not swallow! Chew it slowly, enjoy it, and then spit it out. Immediately after that rinse your mouth with water at least three times before swallowing a sip so you do not accidentally ingest any calories.

*If you are about to binge, pick a safe food, preferably negative calorie (pickles, celery, blueberries, etc.) and eat it non-stop for up to half an hour, taking a sip of water with each bite. Often you will not be able to even get up to half an hour, and you will be full so the desire to binge will be gone, but you haven't eaten anything "bad."

*Do not ever eat anything you do not know the exact amount of calories in. Sometimes you can fool yourself into thinking you've eaten less than you have. Remember, numbers do not lie.

*Track progress by measurements and not the scale alone. Scales are affected by everything from the weather to the time of day, but the numbers on a measuring tape are affected by nothing except the actual size of your body.

*Keep a food diary. Start your own pro-ana page. Make an ed scrapbook. Anything that keeps your mind on not eating is a good thing.

*When you want to eat, exercise for at least 15 minutes first. It not only distracts you from eating but burns calories and benefits your body as well.

*Buy a pair of expensive jeans at least one size too small. Try them on right before you eat. You will either not want to eat or will eat less. When you lose enough weight to fit into them properly, reward yourself by buying another pair, again one or two sizes too small.

*Eat low-calorie foods with very intense flavors. Often times you just crave taste. Chili peppers, anything pickled, peppermints, and very concentrated bullion (make it with half the water recommended) are all good options.

*Make a list of foods that you are absolutely never ever allowed to eat. Write it down and keep it somewhere accessible.
On this list should be things like doughnuts, cake, cream, soda, fatty meats like duck, and any dairy product not made with skim milk. If you really like any of these things and find it hard to resist, prepare it, but then put something disgusting all over it (like pouring vinegar on a cream-filled doughnut). Take a bite. You will find you have totally lost your taste for
the food.

*Diet pills are amazing, but you have to be careful. Try to eat something small and safe when you take one, like an apple or a small piece of grilled chicken. If you don't then you will get awful side effects. The same goes for taking more than the recommended amount. I have taken four stacker 3 pills with no food and almost ended up dead because of it. Use, but with caution.

*If you must go out to eat, go to the restaurant’s web page before hand, and find something safe to eat. Do not eat bread or appetizers. Order a salad with dressing on the side if everyone else is having appetizers. If there is nothing safe on the menu most places will make you a plain piece of grilled chicken or fish if you ask.

*Never drink soda. There is absolutely no reason to. Even diet soda will actually make you look bloated and weigh a little more.
Every night, from about 12 till 1 i figure out my next day.
And how I'm gonna go about dealing with it.
I realized today that the one thing i promise myself every night,
i always eventually break it. And i realize that by doing that I am lying to myself.
If i cant have the strength to trust myself and not lie to myself how am i going to be able to let others trust me?
So for now on if i make a promise to myself i shall keep it.
Today, and for the rest of the week at least. i PROMISE not to binge/purge.
I will exercise and i will lose the disgusting fat!

Yesterday I was so proud of myself i exercise so much! i burned 1300 calories!
But i consumed 1000 so i only burned 300!
i was sad after that.

but today shall be better and this time i mean it.

Love always ---