And the stars begin to shine!

4 pounds down in a week! I didn't think I'd be able to do it. I'm so happy.
But I can't celebrate yet. I need to be 120 by Halloween I'm praying for it.
Been having a yogurt in the morning, 6 celery sticks, and an apple for lunch. then something small later like a banana for dinner. All within 500 cals.

This weekend is going to be tough getting around my mom tho. thank goodness for working all through dinner time. I can say I ate at work. When I reach 120 I will post a picture. And I promise I will reach it.

I was really sad last night, my hermit crab pasted away. It was doing so good, but it lost a limb and now remains lifeless in the shell. I think almost cried. It seems like ever pet I dies.

Anyways tomorrow I will put on some thinspo, have good day (:
Stay strong <3
Sanddy

If life give you lemons, cut 'em up and put them in your water.

---So I was sitting in class today, trying my hardest to pay attention to the teacher, but it just didn't work. I stated to think, and wonder, why is it that everything and anything a person wants in life is so hard to get. But the things we don't want come so easy. Honestly I wish it would be the other way around.

---Today I had a yogurt cup for breakfast, celery and apple for lunch and then dinner with the family, it consisted of fries, chicken and beans... I purged right after. 4th time this week....):
Last night I had practically no sleep. I was up till 3:30 finishing a school project, and then had to get up at 6! 2.5 hrs is not good! I'm so tired I can hardly move. ):

---I'm starting to get addicted to lemon water... all it is, is cut up lemon soaked in water.
Its supposed to boost your metabolism. Which is good because I think mines really slowed down.
Click here to read about it!
Note: they say water should be warm.

A banana, some celery sicks and an apple...
what could go wrong...
Dinner could go wrong...
HAMBURGERS! FUCK!
Well I had shower right after and purged it all out...
I'm confident it was all of it.
I can't believe i purged, 3rd time this week and its only wednesday.
Welcome back bulimia.

So I went to the dentist today, I have to get my wisdom teeth out. o.O
But the one thing I'm looking forward to is my new excuse not to eat food.
and i cant eat any solid food for about a month. (:

-.-.- Hangin' in there,
Sandyy -.-.-

Always good at first

Today:
Yogurt - 150 cal
Apple - 90 cals
6 plums - 30 cals each
little lettuce and meat - aprox 100 cals
homemade jello - 10 cals
water - 0 cals
Total - 380

~Today was good. But i think it could of been better.
I had 2 hrs of dance today, which means I burned about 400 calories.
Not weighing in new weight till Saturday.

~It's odd, I'm getting really bad pains in my stomach, I don't understand why.
There not hunger pains, its like stabbing, its just above my stomach and on my side.
If anyone knows what that could be please please let me know.

Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you
-Anna's Song By Silverchair

~I am going to try and get an early night tonight. Hopefully also keep this up...
Tomorrow I might be forced to have dinner...
so i think i might just have yogurt for breakfast and nothing else till then, and nothing after it.

I love you all!
Sandy <3

Back For As Long As I Can.

Im sorry I left, I had no choice. As mother was getting suspicious.
Everything has been majorly hectic for me in the past month.
I've been forced to eat. I've been threatened...
But I don't care anymore... things have happened that nothing could ever be worse...
You don't scare me.
I gained .... It wasn't my fault... I am quite upset with myself now, but I'll fix things.
Lost 2 pounds since yesterday...
I'm at 131.6 as of this morning... only consumed between 500-600 today... 400-500 yesterday.
I will update on here as much as I can with how its going.
Preferably everyday. I missed you guys!

Promising to keep in touch.
Sandy. <3
P.S I miss you C, you were my one biggest inspiration,
I hope your doing well. (:

Love vs. hate

Yesterday wasn't too bad. I had cottage cheese and lettuce.
but my uncle took me out for a blizzard. I was gonna throw it out but i had no chance i had to eat it... it was about 700 cals!! And it was a small!
So as soon as i was on my own i purged it... my first time purging in 2 weeks.
I was glad to get it out, but i was mad at my self for purging.
I told my self i had to stop because of my blood scare, i cant have mia back...
im sorry mia but my throat and stomach is already getting weak.
Hopefully it wont happen again, anytime soon.

So even tho i consumed im sure just over 800, i didn't put on any weight...
i seem to be losing about 1 pound a day!
Today im trying to raise it tho, eating less then 500 cals and burning over 500.
Hopefully that till work to get under 125 so i can work my way to the 110's!

Love you all...
stay strong with me...
Sandy <3

Replies:

Faz77
Thankyou! and yes it definitely is quite hard!
luckily i have my work, were i can say i ate their...
the best thing to do is be half honest with them and say I'm trying to eat healthy!
i did that and my mom is actually okay with me only having a salad for lunch :)
anyways thank you and u stay strong too
love ya's --Sandy <3

Ana
thankss. hmm thats quite interesting
i guess maybe i have an allergy to aspertame cuz i noticed the more i have it
the more i break out. You deffinatly have a point.
Stay stong love.
Sandyy <3

LOST 3 POUNDS!!!!!

Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry

Plan today....
BURN BABY BURN!
im burning as many calories as possible.... (DDR)
for lunch when i have to eat i will eat salad....
lettuce and cottage cheese... maybe an apple if mom starts watching.
for dinner ill have the same salad....
hopefully that can get me through without my grandmother questioning.
That is all i will eat today!

You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don't know when but I know now
Together we'll make it through somehow
Together we'll make it through somehow
Courage - Superchick

Thinspo......